Am I sane?
Define sanity.. and tell me what is it..what is a normal behaviour according to you?Are we not insane in some way or the other? Dont all of us fluctuate into extremes of tempers someday or the other?
Insanity, or madness, is a semi-permanent, severe mental disorder typically stemming from a form of mental illness. And then what is moral insanity...having wierdest of thougths? affections, habits , hysteria...or is it passion? Passion about anything. For a toddler insanity might be his tryst to climb up the stairs, stand straight , the persistent fight to get his building blocks straight. For an older generation it might be just an effort to eat food right with false teeth. Passion gives positive vibes , but what about insanity?
Are emotions driving us or is it viceversa? And when this happens it becomes hysteria. A temporary phenomena , like a bubble it vanishes...melting like ice. But the thought to ponder over is why? Why do we panic? Its the primal urge to run and hide in face of disaster, disaster of any kinds emotional , mental, physical. Its the sudden fear in me, in you which dominates and replace the rationale that we possess, blocking our pursuit to think. Its a complex combination of anxiety,apprehension ,worry. Its the obsession , complusion to get things alright. Intrusive and repetitive which often thought over seems senseless.
Tryst with ourselves to make thing better. We've not learnt to confront our fears and hence we are anxious. The keyword here is 'Escape' , escape from whatever and be maladaptive to situations. Panic takes our way and sympathy leads us to the end..yes a happy end eventually.
But what if we confront them right then and there? Will we be still hysterical?
Justified, something incorrect and abnormal makes you anxious but I am anxious when i am happy, which means i've been made to learn that nothing which is normal is correct. Am i contradicting ? There should be a sense of depravity always to make me believe its for real.
I am confused but I am hysterical I my own way too...:-)
Insanity, or madness, is a semi-permanent, severe mental disorder typically stemming from a form of mental illness. And then what is moral insanity...having wierdest of thougths? affections, habits , hysteria...or is it passion? Passion about anything. For a toddler insanity might be his tryst to climb up the stairs, stand straight , the persistent fight to get his building blocks straight. For an older generation it might be just an effort to eat food right with false teeth. Passion gives positive vibes , but what about insanity?
Are emotions driving us or is it viceversa? And when this happens it becomes hysteria. A temporary phenomena , like a bubble it vanishes...melting like ice. But the thought to ponder over is why? Why do we panic? Its the primal urge to run and hide in face of disaster, disaster of any kinds emotional , mental, physical. Its the sudden fear in me, in you which dominates and replace the rationale that we possess, blocking our pursuit to think. Its a complex combination of anxiety,apprehension ,worry. Its the obsession , complusion to get things alright. Intrusive and repetitive which often thought over seems senseless.
Tryst with ourselves to make thing better. We've not learnt to confront our fears and hence we are anxious. The keyword here is 'Escape' , escape from whatever and be maladaptive to situations. Panic takes our way and sympathy leads us to the end..yes a happy end eventually.
But what if we confront them right then and there? Will we be still hysterical?
Justified, something incorrect and abnormal makes you anxious but I am anxious when i am happy, which means i've been made to learn that nothing which is normal is correct. Am i contradicting ? There should be a sense of depravity always to make me believe its for real.
I am confused but I am hysterical I my own way too...:-)
posted by camouflaged9 at 4:22 AM
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VoW !!! SPARKS AGAIN !!!
Well my personal feeling is like this ... donno if i can explain this phenomenon very clearly ... but will try ... If you get INSANE or CONFUSED after reading this Just GIVE me a HONEST WINK ;-) ...
" Boundaries For What Ever We Do "
... is the root cause for the word "INSANE". we all live in a MATRIX (don't assume me to be NEO ;-) now) ... And in this Matrix we have created Boundaries ... anybody who crosses the Line of Control ... is observed by the rest ... and probably termed Kinda "INSANE" ...
All of us have some amount of EGO BRAINS ... when we normally see someone overdoing something ... say ... you were driving down the road ... at a TOADS pace ... and suddenly you see some other person probably a LADY ;-) who drove by you like ROSSI ... You'll observe this ... this was not kinda natural ... I mean A LADY DRIVING BULLET AT 120 Kms per hour ... some gals might term her as INSANE ... might tell she must be INSANE to drive so FAST ... well on the other hand some people like me who like speeding might think ... Ow my GaWd ...that was amazing ... and may speed up to catch up with her ;-)
Ok now one more instance ... You might see somebody slogging at work Day and Night ... not having any fun , not talking with many folks around ... consumed in thier own world ... You make an attempt to act smart in front of them ...telling "Hey common chill out , why are you slogging like this all the time at your work place ? " the person might just give you a "HEY LEAVE ME ALONE" kinda look ... or might bluntly tell "Hey I'm busy could you plz excuse me ?" well you could just think he must be INSANE to work day and night ... :-)
ok not so close enough ...let me think of one more instance ... ok ...hmmmm ... say there is some person who likes music so so much that he only talks about music starts singing anywhere and everywhere ... not bothered about the people around .. the situation around ... etc etc ... you might feel that a bit ockward ...and might term Him "INSANE" ..."This person is kinda INSANE he starts singing and whistling anywhere and everywhere"
hmmmm ok one more ... ONE SIDED LOVE ... most of us might consider it to be INSANE ... say there is a GUY ... who falls in love with a GAL ... and this is kinda one sided ... Ok ... days pass by ... but some how the love increases on only one side ... the GAL has no feelings for this INSANE LOVER ... LOL !!! ... he tries to do all things to please her make her laugh ... and just wants her to LOVE him ... he might cut his viens, bleed ,get drunk , do N number of things ... ok now lets say we are all wathcing this "LIVE MOVIE" ... we might tell "HEY this guy seems kinda INSANE to love her so much ..." here we have drawn boundaries for love ... What if both of them loved and commited SUICIDE because of family reasons ? we'd tell they were INSANE to be dead ... (we could tell INSANE only if we observed and if we felt something out of our normal behaviour)
There are infinite instances where we try to define boundaries in various activities / behaviour that people do / live ... all the lines of control are based on how we grew up and what laws we followed ... our incapablities , our failures , our overconfidence , our ego , our finacial status, etc etc .... and something thats overdone might be termed as "INSANE" by the rest ...
Now having given all these instances ... the some real questions that remains unanswered are
"Whether we should do all things within SANE boundaries ?"
"What if I overdo something and people call me to be INSANE ?"
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Doubts like this flow on and on ...
Ok let me try to answer for the above SPARKS...
What if this SPEEDING LADY Was a big time FILM STAR say "Angelina JoLie" ?
What if this SINGER was on BILLBOARD Hit list say "KURT COBAIN" ? (yeah i know he pulled the god damn trigger and is resting in peace) ... or else take "HIMESH RESHAMIYA" topping the MTV hit list ...
What if this WORKOHOLIC was some GURU say Like "GRADY BOOCH" ?
LOL !!! One sided LOVER example I leave you to find one of em ;) ...
NOW all these above famous personalities MOST of us appreciate and we dont seem to see INSANITY lurking on their FACES ...
Now comming to the BASELINE Question ... "Should we be SANE or INSANE doing things ?"
Well this again depends on your outlook towards the world ...
if you feel all the time ... "I don care a damn what ppl are gonna talk ..." then you could stretch out beyond boundaries to explore things that you like ...
if you feel what others will think of your actions ,,, say what your parents are gonna feel ?, what your friends / colleages gonna feel ?, what the JANATHA are gonna think ?... you start doing things in a controlled manner, your actions are concious ... it might please a lot of people around ... and if you too are happy with it then very fine too ...
LOL !!! lot of fundas again from me ... god damn it ... well again i'm not drawing boundaries to my reply here (just got bored of typing bytes) LOL !!!
Ok MORAL : " BE SANELY INSANE "
Confused ? LOL !!! , just remember that HONEST WINK ;-) I'll be a lot more happy to get that ... LOL !!!
ok back to the GAME now ...
Keep SPARKING !!!
Cheers !!!
Sagar.
I pity the Guy whoz the target of ur "hysteria/ Insecurity" !! he shud b really strong rite ? :P......or atleast an "emotional manipulator" !!
All human emotions are nothing but "quantum of energy". how it manifests in you depends on myriad complex combination of factors, like the environment u r in, the kind of ppl with whom u r interacting wid, the weather, etc etc...
Its the same energy of Love which gets transformed to possesiveness and Jealousy.
Its the same energy of Lust which gets transformed to creativity.
Its the same energy of Insecurity/Fear which gets transformed to Anger and Hate.
You become miserable when you let your emotions to be your master. But tat doesnt mean you have to be so Stiff to avoid emotions to master u...coz in tat case u bcome so conscious of urself tat u wil again feel miserable...Juz feel lik a balloon floating in the air....So Light, carefree and Playful !
PS:- Anyways, I pity the person whoz the target of ur "hysteria/ Insecurity" !! he/she shud b really strong rite ? :P......or atleast an "emotional manipulator" !! Otherwise he/she wud hv been "annihilated" by the flames of ur hysterisis already !
:)... sanity is insane.
no u aren't [:P]
tsk tsk...why did u waste so much time writing this. you could have jus asked me
HEY..i went thruu some of the BLOGS OF MY FRNDS AND found urs in that...nice blogs...carry on ...writing a blogs r different fun...:)
So artificial a blog....even the previous ones also...This is what happens when you compel yourself in writing blogs just to convince yourself or others....Let it flow naturally...
either of freud or nietsche shud have been alive,
not a job for us mortals to analyze!
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away they were meant to be there...to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them or get lost in their words and you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.
And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair, but in reflection of you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power, or heart.
"Everything happens for a reason". Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, love, and lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all acrue to test limits of your soul. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to know where safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.
nice blog...:-)
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